mandarin classes are not bad. cute korean woman who reminds me of leeniekins sits behind me. she's like a 30-something version. she looks hardly twenty, though.

wednesday was fun, chilling with the girls. DANCING. bootyshaking, bootypopping, bootylocking till the early morning. xD my pelvis is sore right now. xP POLYNESIAN DANCING. xD

i know it is your choice. but friends worry. though it is your choice, it affects the people around you, especially the ones who care most about you. i know i am not around you much, and i don't talk with you much....but we are still connected. just please be careful and take care of yourself. and stop being so pessimistic. =]

i am now at an airport lounge, getting ready to go to hk for visa purposes.

i am missing ()9.9(). like crazy. *insert daily reminder here*

if anyone is interested, i am now in tw. just touched down two and a half hours ago. the restaurant has been altered quite a bit. x_X anyway.

kitty hearts puppy.

E>

are you really happy? all those fast cars, fast women, and that fast living....transitory highs....i think they are merely escapes from reality because you are afraid. you are afraid of losing your "hardcore" image, your "rep", your need to intimidate. but really. does that make you happy? does it make you happy to have no real friends? i mean, other than honorable brother/sisterhood, you really have nothing tangible. no love, no freedom, no life. is it all that fun to live in fear? in fear of what might be around the corner, what subordinate might become an insubordinate, what friends and/or family you might lose because you are too scared to leave that cesspool you call life. what kind of life is this....to never know if you might wake up again once you go to sleep, to never know if those you call friends will become enemies, to never know where you would go, what you would do, if you lost it all (i.e., what little you have)? child, please. get a grip. i know you can't change it all just like that, but you can try. living with hatred is not living at all. this fantasy living is tried and tired. so change. just knock on Fate's door, and she'll bring you Destiny. Karma will be around, too. whoever wronged you or anyone else, they will be met with what they deserve. it is not your place to instigate vengeance. you have so much anger, and it makes me sad. you know you are culpable, so don't bother blaming everyone or anyone else for it. don't even blame yourself to induce pity from others. you've made a mistake. so has every human being on this planet. just repent, and it'll be fine. change. you can be so beautiful, yet you choose to permit ugliness mar your beauty. even now, i know that my words will be met with condescension or dismissal, but i still pray that you will find what every human should seek: love. love should be the first wonder in the world, for it causes wonderful things to happen. nothing that any human can build can rival love's power, illumination, and awe. sometimes people may hurt each other out of lack of love. it's ok. even if someone decided to destroy my body, take me away from what i have found in living this life of mine, even take my life, that person could never take away the beauty i know i have or the beauty that i have experienced. perhaps one day you will find it. just keep trying. my mind, body, and soul are already satisfied. i would sacrifice anything to be a part of Destiny's plan. i would rather you live.

ANYWAY. i love bothering my puppy, but not as much as i love puppy himself. xD he is "good art" and "good literature". like the sun to a flower, you are my sustenance. i'd choose you over chocolate any day. =] it's almost our two months. almost. it's so weird. the way time parts from our grasp, it feels as if it has been such a short time....but the way i have been in your grasp, it feels as if it has been a lifetime. we must have been connected somehow in a past life. you know me so well, and we are so in tune with each other. i love it. i love you. i want to eat your face. =DDDD unbreakable leash. pk kp cheesefactory. the entire solar system inside my head as we touch. soaring up through the clouds and into the cosmos with every kiss. can't wait. but i'll be waiting....here. =]

i saw duey for the first time since xmas vacation of '02 this past saturday. i took photos of him. xD his first time in cerritos. =P and he approves of my puppy. but then, i don't know anyone who doesn't. ^.^ serious. smart, sexy, and sensitive. x]

i am so in love. i'm about to pass out from the xing-fu-ness. everyone should be able to come across a feeling like this once in their lifetime. everytime that i am with you, i feel as if....we are the couple that everyone envies. because we are so attuned to each other, so heartful to each other, so....perfect together. mei i tian ai ni duo i dian. you make me want to sing cheesy love songs. just like a storybook fairytale, you came and swooped me up out of nowhere....saved me before i fell on my face. your every wrinkle, freckle, nook and cranny, i want to explore. your every thought, idea, dream and hope, i want to discover. your every love, i want to be. Fate purposely had us stumble into each other's arms. Destiny will keep us locked.

and hopefully, she'll throw away the key. xD

[edit]I WANT TO GO TO NIGHT MARKETS WITH MY PUPPY. anybody have any information regarding living accomodations near/in nei-hu for a stray dog =D?[end edit]
[[edit]]"do jiang yo tiao"- jj lin. ni hsu yiao wo de sa xiao. wo hsu yiao ni de yong bao....do jiang li bu kai yo tiao. lang wo ai ni ai dao lao. ai ching jio shi yao ze yiang ta tsai xing fu mei hao.[[end edit]]

ooooh. all hot and bothered. x)

chs poem (feel free to critique constructively):
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another year, another place. how long will i stay here. for the rest of my high school career, perhaps?
uncertainty, memory lapses of melancholy induced by solitude transform
i am an opal. will i ever be a diamond?
realization, happy realization, lost and found.
find me.
find me there.
it¡¦s okay, isn¡¦t it?
nothing is ever okay.
no.
everything is okay.
Love opposed to being in it.
tragic heart.
Love in a polygon.
am i here?
yes, i exist.
i want to vomit.
i want to vomit words, tears, emotions.
don¡¦t speak, i¡¦m just talking.
let me listen to hollow echoes.
wait.
they are not hollow.
i am filled to the brim.
overflow.
i am a dynamite on timer.
crash.
into you real hard.
flirting with Fate.
rendezvouz in reverie.
date in dreamland.
date with Destiny.
finally.
Ruby and Kitay. kitty and puppy. jian dan ai. wen.
end of one chapter, beginning of another.
where do i go from here?
it is not the end.
fear of the future.
class of ¡¦05, our time has arrived.
take care.
Hope, Faith, and Love.
a whole new world¡K.
¡K.how many more pages?

have you ever noticed how in junior high, all your girls wanted to be left eye in tlc, but they were always too afraid to deviate from the norm? i find that interesting.

have i ever told you my HIV test story (as required by Normal Univ. of TW)? well. i went to the clinic a few weeks ago. they poked four unnecessary holes in me before, finally, blood escaped. =P they had to use the back of my right hand. anyway. since i'm anemic (ping tsue, aka "flat blood" xD), i lost consciousness in the middle of it. -_- then i went home with a splitting headache. then i vomited my lunch. =DDDD is that not fuN stuff? i think not. ^^

oh, btw, i forgot to say that my manfriend photoshopped the cat+dog compilation in the previous entry. xDDDD

when i speak to you about things, you actually listen. it's weird that the things i've told other people, they've taken in as a computer processes information, but you....you actually listen, the way a lover conversates with a lover. E> i'm so glad. =] XING FU. utterly. xD and, MAN. i keep seeing stars and flying through the cosmos.

puppy(3:58:23 PM): i want my first to be my last
puppy(3:58:35 PM): i want to stay with you.

....and i am still quite gan dong. =]